My Angel Baby!

To the baby that I carried

But never seen your eyes

Or tell you how much I loved you

Or ever to hear your cries.

You will never be forgotten

The excitement we had for your coming.

When I realized I'd never hold you,

The feeling I had was numbing.

My angel baby is who you are.

My angel baby you'll always be.

Your loving memory will live in my heart

So you will always be right here with me.

Such a gloomy day! :(

Well its been a rocky two days...yesterday i went to work and came home just didnt felt like myself...so i just laid around tell Bryan and I went to pick up Dakota from school came home, Bryan's mom called and as he was chatting with her i went to the bathroom and while i was in there i notice that i have been bleeding...so i called the doc. and went to Benkelman so the can draw some blood and visited with the Dr. Jaeger..so now i have to wait and be on bed rest tell Friday then i have to go back and run the same test again to see if my hormone level is rising or dropping that will tell if im loosing the baby or just having minor problems...so i have been a nervous wreck cuz not only i have to stay on the couch all day im going the day without my boys and that is driving me nuts i havent been alone like this for 9 years!!! But im doing good im trying to keep my spirits up and not think for the worse! So hopefully this big nightmare will be going away Friday and i can get back being pregnant and being mom and a wife....Thanks for all that is wonder about me...I feel LOVED and i needed that today! I want to also thank my wonderful husband that just been the best and my wonderful best friend Lindsay for taking my kids today and looking out for me!!! LOVE YOU GUYS! well now i better get back to the couch...i'll let ya know more later....again Thanks!

Updates!

I will start off saying that everyone is doing well other than some running noses and coughing ,we are gettin along very well. The boys are not waiting patiently for spring...its a everyday thing yelling at them to get in this house...its like 30 out there...but when we are graciously giving a couple of warm days here and there you better believe they are out that door, with just a lil push from me. Bryan started racing last weekend and gotten 7th...which he didnt think that was good enough but its just the first race of the year and everyone trying to work out the cob webs! While everyone else is hating this weather, he is jumping for joy... he said this is what he needs on his wheat fields and the fields that they will be planting for corn...im loving it too cause it just that longer i have to turn on my sprinklers...after this the ground clears all your going to see is beautiful grass everywhere....and spring flowers...oh cant wait...back to the boys they are doing good, been a LOT of fighting but i think they are tired being coup up in the house...today i didnt just have one crying i had all three of them crying...Colten came running upstairs crying and this is what he told me "Mom Dakota hit me for hitting Dalten" then Dakota came up just crying and telling me " Mom Colten punch me in the eye for hitting him cuz he hit Dalten...and better believe it Dalten came up right behind Dakota just crying and he was babbling about something...i believe he was telling me that " I bit Colten so he hit me and Dakota hit him....so Colten punch him in the eye"..it was too cute that all i could do was laugh...but i believe that we have a hitting problem that better stop right now....so needless to say i had all three in the corner for timeout... Dalten is the funnest kid ever...he makes me laugh from his cheesy smile to his tantrums! He's finally getting his eye teeth in and i believe he's done, tell his two year molars comes in which they probably wont come in tell he's three...lol I'm doing great, i still feel tired and nauseated all the time...and my house is paying for it, other than that all is good...I just started to wear my maternity pants today...i didnt think that day would come so quickly but everyone tells me the more you have the sooner you start showing...the only thing is wearing them today made me look like i was 7 months pregnant and that scars me cuz when it come to nine month does that mean i going to be looking like an elephant....HOPE NOT! Well i am 10 weeks...i was suppose to see the doc this week...but i forgot to make an appt...oops I will definitely get in there next week and i'll let you know how it goes... We hope you all have a great relaxing weekend...and until next time...PEACE

By the way i have a poll on the side you can make your guess on what we are having...a lot of people told us that we have to let them now when we fine out...well sorry to burst your bubble but NO ONE is going to know until he/she is born...HA! HA!

Pics found on the net!

A friend found these somewhere on the web and sent them to me..

This was Ace welcome home at the college in North Platte and i remember a lady wanting to take our pics cuz she thought the shirts were neat...Ace, Mom, Aunt Tootie , Dad and me in the back... you can also see Andy behind dad!

Thanks Pam!

Going to play a game of "Where's Aletha"...can you find me???

Random Pics

Wed. was such a beautiful day Bryan and Colten was flying a kite

hmm..yummy ear!

Bryan showing Colten how to fly the kite

Dalten Easter egg hunting

Dakota and Myka wrestling...i think Myka was winning

"wuv eggs"

Dalten having a blast

Easter Egg hunt at the hillside park

eating pizza the big boy way

must of like this pic. to put it on her twice...lol

Myka showing some love to Bryan

Dakota trying to be sneaky and shoot us with darts

Our lil gummy bear!

So today i went in for my first ultra sound and it went very well. I gotten goose-bumps of enjoyment as i got to hear he/she heart beat for the first time... and also got to see him/her! So the ultra-sound showed me around the 11th but they are going keep the due date on the 7th...and we have a lot of birthday's around there also...so my father in law can have birthday present around the 1st or it could come around the 2nd which is Bryan aunt and uncle birthday or the 14th as thats my brother in-law Brandt's birthday..... so it will be interesting to see when he/she decides to come.....Lindsay is saying the 6th....so i guess we will see! I want to Thank everyone for the congrats....we are very EXCITED even tho. we thought we was done after Dalten....lol but Bryan and I have decided this will be our last and we are have talk to the docs. about it and we are comfortable about this decision! I mean i can keep having these babies forever but the realty of the gases prices are sky rocketing it makes everything else go high... I mean $4 for milk.... and almost $3 for bread.... there no way for people to have big families anymore...and i cant even get into it about College without turning my stomach....so I think i will be comfortable with 4...it surly keep me busy!

Baby update!

Well i had my first appointment Friday... and it went well...as for a due date the first one they are giving me is November 7, 2008 but i will have an ultra sound Tuesday and that will let us know for sure.... So we are going as i am 7 weeks till tues. and then we will go from there...Most of you dont know that i dont have a normal start of a pregnancy... Dakota i was 3 to 4 months long before i found out... Colten i was a week.. ( that one sucked cuz it seemed to take forever) and Dalten i had to periods in one month...(sorry guys im sure you didnt want to know that)... and so every pregnancy i have to have a ultra sound to know my right due date... and so far its been right on all of them... so we really cant wait to see what date this one give us....i hoping in October... or the first of November... I hate being huge and uncomfortable during the holidays... but i would love to have a Halloween baby! Other than that i been doing great hardly have morning sickness... so this one has to be a girl...lol jk dont know for sure.... i do tho. have my terrible headaches but no strokes yet so i been really happy about that...but the doctor said soon those start they get me on some meds. to help to control that during the pregnancy...so Bryan and i are keeping our finger crossed and hope they dont show up! As for some of you that dont understanding... we discover while i was pregnant with Dalten that my body has like a allergic reaction to me being pregnant...the hormones in my body dont agree with each other so the fight all the time against each other that will cause my body to have strokes...its not fun...It really hurts and i cant control when it happens...so that why we was deciding that we wasnt going to have anymore babies cuz i dont want to be driving and one comes on...cuz my body goes limp and i will lose control...so i dont want to hurt my family...but we are going to do this one more time... and pray that nothing bad will happen!! But i will let you know this early Bryan and I decided that when it comes to seeing the sex of the baby we arent let anyone know what he/she is.... you all will have to wait and see when he/she is born....So you all can do your guess and see at the end of my nine months to see who is right...lol well thats it for now and i will let you know more on Tuesday!

Happy Birthday MOM!

Happy Birthday Mom, We love you!!!

Kids Lil Instructions on Life!! Priceless

I gotten this email today and i though it was so cute i wanted to share!

KIDS' LITTLE INSTRUCTIONS ON LIFE

Never trust a dog to watch your food.> Patrick, Age 10

When you want something expensive, ask your grandparents.> Matthew, Age 12

Never smart off to a teacher whose eyes and ears are twitching.> Andrew, Age 9

Wear a hat when feeding seagulls.> Rocky, Age 9

Sleep in your clothes so you'll be dressed in the morning.> Stephanie, Age 8

Never try to hide a piece of broccoli in a glass of milk.> Rosemary, Age 7
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Don't flush the john when your dad's in the shower.> Lamar, Age 10

Never ask for anything that costs more than five dollars when your> Parents are doing taxes.> Carrol, Age 9

Never bug a pregnant Mom.> Nicholas, Age 11

Don't ever be too full for dessert.> Kelly, Age 10

When your dad is mad and asks you, "Do I look stupid?" don't answer him.> Heather, Age 16

Never tell your Mom her diet's not working.> Michael, Age 14

Don't pick on your sister when she's holding a baseball bat.> Joel, Age 12

When you get a bad grade in school, show it to your Mom when she's on> the phone.> Alyesha, Age 13

Never try to baptize a cat.> Laura, Age 13

Remember you're never too old to hold your father's hand.> Molly, Age 11

Listen to your brain. It has lots of information.> Chelsey, Age 7

Stay away from prunes.> Randy, Age 9

Never dare your little brother to paint the family car.> Phillip, Age 13

Forget the cake, go for the icing.> Cynthia, Age 8

Remember the two places you are always welcome - church and grandma's> house.> Joanne, Age 11

I've Been Tagged!

I've been tagged by Sarah and Renee

Here's how you play. Once you've been tagged you have to write a blog of ten weird, random things, facts or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them to be tagged. Don't forget to leave them a comment "You're it!" and tell them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. Since you can't tag that person back, let her know when you've posted your blog so she can read your answers.

1. I cant clean my left ear out without gagging and coughing...(dk why)

2.Cant stand seeing other people feet other than mine and babies....nor i cant have anyone touching my feet!

3.I'm pregnant again for the 4th time even after i told everyone that i was done!

4.I'm the same Sarah i cant have my hand dirty.....i dont mind messing with mud and dirt but i have to wash them all the time and it's worst when i am pregnant...Bryan counted one day when i was prego and i washed my hands 60 times in one day....

5. I dont read unless its in Dairy form or a autobiography

6. When i was lil, a boy dare me to eat a grasshopper... of course i did it! The legs scratching all the way down

7. A lot of people are afraid of me... i guess i always look bitchy...but actually i HATE to fight!

8. I have a phoebe of the dark...i think someone always watching me...so i have to have all the blinds close in the house at night and the door locked...i cant even look out the window without my heart jumping around....

9. I have dreamed the same dream since i was 5...plus i have premonitions all the time...daily! I knew my grandma past away mins before the phone ranged....i knew something happened to my brother in Iraq before my parents told me....and other than that its just conversations i have with people when i hear how they start it I could almost finish what they are going to say it...weird i know!

10. My nose is very sensitive...worse when im pregnant...I cant walk into the dollar store without gagging....basically anything my nose dont like i start gagging...so as you can seeing i have a real bad gagging problem...lol

one more...

11. I started at 5 years old getting gray hair... it start as one strand and it's now a spot bigger than a silver dollar and no matter what dye i use or how often i do it.. it will wash out in a couple of days on that grey spot...cursed i tell ya cursed!


Tag your it

Lindsay.... Even tho. i know everything about you it would be fun to see what you would say!

Randy...it would be fun to see what you say also....

Charlie... I would like to know more about you

Julie...even tho. we was in school together... i would like to know more about you

Sara.... i sorta knew you from school...but i would love to see what some weird thing about you!

Have fun....